I just don’t see it in my life. Whoever I start liking Just ends with complications. I just can’t pursue anyone anymore.  I’ll love them as a friend as much as i can but that’s all it will ever peek. I’ll never be able to explain to those people how much I cared. All the heartache and thoughts i went through just to damage myself to this point.  I do say this now of course that I will never feel love or want it around me anymore but give me time and I’m sure I can feel what I once use to be.