Tonight when I get off work I think I’ll just go straight to bed (for once) just not in the mood, hopefully ill be able to sleep. Then I can finally build the standee my manager dropped on me to do.I was going to a small show with a coworker and their friend but I don’t feel like going anymore :/ so after the standee ill stay in bed.

for these next 5 days i wont be on at all probably …its going to suck -.- but ill be at Anime Expo working and seeing all the awesome cosplays and taking pictures and having fun .. so i guess its a fair trade hahaha just im already dreading the 1000 pages ill come home to >_> … i could try to blog while im there but i dont know how well or often i could do it …. well i need to try and sleep have to get up in 3 hours =_= im just so restless … Goodbye tumblr and my followers lol ill be back in no time

I just don’t see it in my life. Whoever I start liking Just ends with complications. I just can’t pursue anyone anymore.  I’ll love them as a friend as much as i can but that’s all it will ever peek. I’ll never be able to explain to those people how much I cared. All the heartache and thoughts i went through just to damage myself to this point.  I do say this now of course that I will never feel love or want it around me anymore but give me time and I’m sure I can feel what I once use to be.